Saturday, November 13, 2010

Rachel Grace

It was November 13, 2005 when I lost my little Rachel Grace. She didn't even get to make an entrance on this earth, just went straight to Heaven.

That day still holds the worst day of my life award, however, the pain is not what is was, and aside from the occasional thought about wondering how our lives would be different with that little princess as a part of our family, most days are filled with laughter and love with my two that are here, with little thought of our loss.

Even though she didn't get to come home with us, she has taught me so much. She gave me immense joy as I carried her for those few short months, she caused me to reach out to my Saviour at time when I was feeling particularly spiritually dry. She gave me compassion on those who have lost babies, whether thru miscarriage or other means, she made me love Rebecca and Ryan with a new fervor. She has helped me be thankful for the small things others take for granted.

And on today, her day, I am so thankful for all that I have, and though I love and miss her I know she is singing beautiful songs to my Jesus in heaven, and I certainly can't complain about that.

Rachel means innocent lamb
Grace means good will

Rachel for the R theme we had going and Grace for all the grace God gave me to make it through.

1 comment:

Tonya said...

so beautiful....she's missed by all who loved her even before she could be born....