diet and exercise

I pretty much heavily dislike both dieting and exercise. However, since I wasn't blessed with a metabolism that lets me eat all day and do nothing at all and be thin, (and I doubt I will ever be thin as that is not my goal) as much as I dislike those things I have come to realize they are a necessary evil. So in the last week, I have actually exercised every day (we are going to count the running around I do at work exercise, I mean after all it is 12 hours each day picking up people, running down the hall, sometimes sprinting to keep someone from falling out of bed--it counts) Yesterday, I counted the work I did outside as my exercise. I have even exercised through a stomach bug. I am determined for now.

See this is what I do, I go full force (just like every other thing I do) for a while, then I get burnt out, or discouraged, or hungry for a giant cookie and give up. What I realized recently though is, I don't want to give up the things I like forever, and removing them forever isn't going to happen, so removing them completely now is only going to cause failure later.

Now you may recognize that this is the idea behind weight watchers, eat well, but you can still have that dessert if you count it. except you can't do that everyday and expect to lose weight.  But for me when I start having to look at calories, and fat, and sugars, etc I start focusing so much on food, and what I can't have that I end up being hungry all the time for stuff I shouldn't eat all the time. So for me, instead of saying I can have 2 of those cookies for 4 points which makes me feel deprived, I am just eating in moderation. So maybe for me that is one cookie, or 3 cookies.  I am going to feeling satisfied instead of full, and moving my body.

I have been on the wii fit everyday for the last 5 days. I am down almost 3 pounds (small steps) I want it to come off slow, as I retrain my body to eat less because I over eat. I know this, and I am the only one that can change it. I have gotten away from drinking enough water, which is amazing in helping reach weightloss goals. My biggest problem areas are my inner thighs and my belly. I'm not a big fan of the back fat my bra shows either. So I am doing a mix of yoga, and aerobic activity. today I did yoga booty ballet (which makes me shake things I will only shake in my family room alone) however it was invigorating. I was sweating, exhausted, and on a exercise high all at the same time. Then I did almost all of a yoga abs workout, some of it I just could not do, so I did what  I could. There is no shame in saying I am unable to do somethings, I tried and that is what is important, and the amazing thing about our bodies, the more we work them, the stronger they get.

I used to say I never understood why people wanted to run a 5K, or marathon etc, but I get it. There is a sense of accomplishment in training your body to do something it can't do right now. I am not a runner, and don't think I ever will be, but I can still set goals for myself. 

Know what exercise also does, it provides an outlet to de-stress. Feeling frustrated, doing some wii boxing, knocks that out (pun not intended, but is cute). Even a walk outside in the fresh air to clear the mind is amazing.

Know why I haven't been exercising until last week. I told myself I was too busy. Now that is the most ridiculous thing I could possibly say. I mean, I have time to surf the internet, read books, avoid laundry and the dishes. I am home alone monday thru friday for 6 hours, and I convinced myself I didn't have time.

And if I need a little more incentive, bathing suit season is fast approaching, and well i dont' want to look like jelly donut in a tight wrapper. ha!

So I am hoping, altho this hasn't particularly worked in the past, but I am hoping that by writing honestly about my journey here I can finally beat this bad cycle of being over weight. I've decided numbers aren't important. I have a goal size sort of, but since clothing is so inconsistent, that isn't even really what I am going for. I have picked a number to shoot for to begin with, and I am focusing first on my first 5 pounds, and I'm half way there. Then I'm going to reach for each 5 pound increment lost, until I reach a place where I feel I can stop.  I am going to be reaching for some scriptures to help me in times of emotional eating because I must recognize that I am an emotional eater. Happy, sad, angry, bored, I go to food. I am going for healthy habits, without strict removal of things I like.

I may or may not post a photo now, but I plan to take a picture a week so I can see the changes happening. It will help keep me motivated.

Know the other benefit of all of this, being a good example for my children. Particularly my daughter. The world puts so much pressure on girls to look a certain way, and being a good example now is going to help give her a solid foundation for later.  I think I may make this my Tuesday posting, perhaps with photos once a month. I don't know for sure.

Have a blessed day.

My healthy breakfast,

1 egg +1 egg white pan fried with green onion
1 slice of toast with my butter (which isn't butter at all)
cup of coffee with stevia

and I am not hungry! =)

Good News

I'm still alive!! hee hee!


Okay sit down this is serious.


I am getting ready to plug my camera into my computer. ha!



We have a had a few crazy weeks. Vacation, Kings Island, Fair this week, work, a house that was hit by a tornado(okay it was really hit by post vacation lazies) ha!


In other news, I got some exciting news, my baby sis in law is expecting! yay!! (hope I was allowed to tell). I am so very excited. I'll get to enjoy this baby as a baby. I realized that I didn't get to enjoy the baby-ness of my current neice adn nephew because I had little ones of my own to monitor, but my little ones are old enough to let me enjoy this one. yay! Praying all goes well and the nausea passes quickly!

Also, I received an unexpected phone call to interview for a different job. The person rattled off this list of qualities they were looking for in the person, and then stated "you came to mind, and I just had to call you" Seriously, nicest compliment I have received in a very very long time. You know how you work to be the person you want to be, but you are never really sure anyone sees you as that person. Guess what, they do, they just don't tell you! Awesome offer, however, not going to do it, I listed out the pros and cons of current vs new job, and even though I work every weekend, my current job won hands down!

Also, I was really struggling with what to do with Kids Klub. I was in charge of the music and story time last year, and honestly by the end I dreaded every single moment. However, with this job possibility I did some focused praying, and received a new excitement for Kids Klub. It is hard for me because with kids klub I don't get any "church" time since I work every weekend. However, recently I have found a new radio station that is cool. I can listen to James McDonald on the radio daily (amazing preacher) and I get the cd's from the weekly service for at home. It is the connection with people I miss most, but I know God will provide a source for that as well.

It is time to start thinking about what the kids need for school. I can't believe I'm going to have a kindergartener and a 2nd grader. wow! and 6, did you read that SIX hours all to me 5 days a week. I haven't had "me" time regularly, or very often for the last 7 years. I love my kids more than life, but I am really looking forward to the quiet time I'm going to have. I am working on a bit of a plan for that time so I don't just laze around ha! I hope to have a regular exercise routine, ok, walking/running routine, and meal plans, and a better kept house. I'll be able to grocery shop sans kids, work in the yard, prepare the garden, etc. Sit and read a book, work in my craft room, yes, I am looking forward to it.

I may have posted this already, in fact, I'm nearly sure I did. Rebecca is now on a dairy free diet too. So that is shifting how I think about our food prep. With 50% of our family dairy free, I need to make some adjustments. Before I would make supper and fix me my own stuff sans milk, but now I want Rebecca to be able to enjoy everyday things, so I have to make them. So I am going to be doing some recipe trying, and not only making things dairy free, but also cleaning up our diet. I will now have to pack Rebecca's lunch every day of the school year, so I need to plan so we aren't rushing around. Also I want to give her some variety. All of that takes planning, but I want to make up a little recipe book that lists things that work well, so I can plan easier.

Well, I need to plug in the camera and upload those photos, and tackle the rest of the dishes...some one threw miracle grow on my dishes I'm fairly certain! ha!

have a blessed day, oh but before you go...check out this fabulous fashion statement.